This is something you’ll never read or maybe even care about, but I need to let it out somewhere that you’ll maybe see. I want you to know that you never really did anything to make me feel like shit at all. It wasn’t you that made me sad. I made myself sad. I overthought too much, I was too paranoid. Nothing you ever did made me sad, it was me overthinking and always assuming shit I should’ve probably asked you about first. The thing with me is that I don’t think before I act. I just act and mess everything up. Don’t blame yourself for any of my sadness, please. I made myself feel like shit, and it’s not fair for me to make you feel like shit too. I could apologize for all of this but I’m not going to because I know by this point, you’re tired of my apologies. And maybe apologizing again would just get you even more annoyed. I just wanted to thank you for putting up with me for the longest time. Really, it means a lot. And I wouldn’t blame you if you left altogether, too. I mean, if I could leave myself, I would. It’s fine, you have no obligation to stay. I understand why you did the things you did and why you said the words you said. Just know that you constantly trying to make me happy is one thing I’ll have to thank you for the rest of my life. If anything, you’re the one guy who ALWAYS treated me right. And I just… I wished I could show you how much I really thank you for that. But read this or not, I hope one day you’d let me thank you for everything in person someday. Well, I better cut this off now.
Thanks for reading and have a nice day. (:
It’s like, YOLO being used the right way. It makes me think that they’ll take any risk just to show you how much they truly cared. I mean, sure, people get scared. But like some people might say: “all you need is 20 seconds of insane courage and I promise you, something great will come out of it.” Take those 20 seconds. Because if you don’t, well you just might miss out on something great.
(Source: anjiereene-decrooz)
